Tuesday, December 12, 2017

Holiday Donations (and a Little Bit of Guilt)

It is that time of year again when I try too keep extra change in my coat pockets. I am going to the grocery store and I subconsciously predict there will be someone at the entrance, braving the cold, to ring a bell standing next to a red container.
As I approach the building I hear the familiar sound even before I see who rings it. I am grateful that I am able to toss coins in the bucket and I have a decision to make. Do I do that before I enter the store or after?
The bell ringer looks at me as I draw near. There are no words or smiles coming my way. I carry a perception of judgement from a person I don’t even know as to whether I will walk right past or not. In a split second I say, “I will stop on way out.”
The decision has been made. I conclude that by donating before my shopping the person may not remember I already gave and I might be another faceless person who seems not to care.
Walking up and down the aisles my attention is focused on crossing items off the shopping list as they are dropped into the shopping cart.
After paying the cashier I push my cart filled with groceries towards the exit. I again hear the sound of the bell. I put my hand in my pocket feeling for the coins to be thrown into the bucket. This time smiles and words are exchanged. I walk toward my car feeling a slight sense of approval.
I realize the only approval I was really seeking was my own. Next time I will pitch my offering in the bucket before entering the store. I care about donating and my sense of peace within could come before or after I did my shopping.

Tuesday, December 22, 2015

I Don’t Go to Bed Disappointed in Myself Any More (Continuing Diabetes Series)


          Before the diabetes diagnosis it was a typical ritual. In the morning I would mentally declare my intentions to have a day of perceived normal, healthy meals. I am not hungry in the morning so that worked for the first few hours of my day.

        Around 10:00 was my break time at work. Still having a healthy resolve I would eat yogurt unless someone brought in donuts or bagels and cream cheese. Occasionally a patient would surprise the staff with fudge, homemade caramels, or cookies. I would think, “I will have the yogurt tomorrow…maybe.”

        I could eat for any reason or emotional state. I was bored. I was lonely. I was happy. I was sad. I was depressed. I discovered snacks made a fine substitute for a companion while I was reading or watching T.V.

        I would walk through the stores keeping an eye out for sales on holiday specialty candy. There was a time bagged Cadbury eggs came out only during Easter. It was a happy day when they started coming out at Christmas. M&Ms also expanded their line and I got hooked on the white chocolate ones. When they were on sale I would by at least 2 packages thinking they would last for weeks.

        At the grocery store I would always walk through the bakery department. I loved the frosting stuffed sugar cookies and the small decorated cakes.

        I ate these tasty treats almost until bed time. When I fell into bed I would scan the day. I sure did not like myself. It was shocking to realize how much I felt I let myself down. A part of me didn’t care as I felt things would never change. Given the choice, sweets would win out.

        After the diabetes diagnosis the ritual changed drastically. The day I walked out of the doctor’s office I told myself no more processed sugar. If nothing else I would not ingest cake, candy, etc. I was scared straight. I have learned to bypass candy isles and bakery sections.

        I discovered fruit tastes sweet when I am not consuming sugar. I try not to plan food more than 2 days out. I adjust my food accordingly while keeping my eye my application of the Fitness Pal to monitor carbs and calories.


        In the evening I am often pleasantly surprised to see that total counts for the day have come in under my allotted food allowance. Now when I go to bed and scan my day and feel at peace.  

Saturday, November 21, 2015

Sweets Can Be the Death of Me





So many tasty cakes ...





I love frosting. My husband would ask if I would like a little cake with my frosting. I’m the one that asks for the corner outside piece of decorated sheet cakes. I am filled with dismay when at a birthday party I see the person next to me scraping the decorated sugar flowers off the cake and leaving them discarded on the plate.

The last frosting I consumed was over 3 months ago. I am a sugar addict proclaiming, “I am 90 days frosting free!”

It took a major medical diagnosis to bring around a transformation for me. I found out I am diabetic and this is a big adjustment.


It is my intention to share my reflections and experiences on this new road that I must navigate. It is my desire that my musings might be helpful to others learning to live with diabetes. To be notified of new posts just click on follow me on the right top of the page. Please feel free to share with other interested parties. (Occasionally there may be other topics in my posts.)

Saturday, September 27, 2014

An Amazing Village Designed Just For People with Dementia

When I saw this on FB I felt I had to share to share this story and information. I would like the article to reach as many people as possible.
Elder care for dementia patients often carries such a sad and depressing outlook. When I read this I thought, “Thank goodness, there is a more humane approach to this situation.”
I hope this idea takes off. My mother had Alzheimer’s and I would have definitely investigated this further if it had been available. If I should ever be in need of supervision, this is something that I would like my children to keep in mind if it should be come necessary.
I am a big advocate in discussing elder care with my children. When I wrote Shopping for Nursing Homes in the Chicken Soup Book Living with Alzheimer’s and Other Dementias, I had no idea that this would someday become another option. With the possibility of this type of care I believe more families will receive the care and compassion so anxiously sought.

Saturday, March 1, 2014

Is It Dust or Is It an Orb?



When discussing orbs, I often hear comments from skeptics such as, “There is dust on the camera,” or “that is a reflection.”
The other morning I was in an area that I often take orb pictures. I usually take pictures before I go to work and it is usually dark. On this particular day, I was not working and the sun was streaming through the window.
I was shaking a piece of clothing before placing it on a hangar. I saw dust floating in the sunlight. I decided it was a perfect time to experiment. I wanted to take a picture of what I knew was definitely dust.
The above picture shows a combination of dust and orbs. The little scattered white spots are dust. On the right is a beautiful colorful orb. The orb is distinctive by the basic orb properties. It is round with a defined rim. Orbs come in many colors and shapes. A classic orb is white or filled with color and has a pattern within. There is also another small orb to the left that is deeper blue.
People around the world are photographing and sharing orb pictures. It is a fascinating subject of inquiry. I leave the interpretation of orbs to the individual. I am always curious to learn more about orbs and this is one of my most recent experiments to differentiate whether the spot on my picture is dust or an orb.

Saturday, September 21, 2013

What Did My Dream Mean?

I awoke with from one of the scariest dreams I had ever had! Never had I encountered a dream that held one of my worst fears; loss of memory.
I am so fortunate to live a life of synchronous moments. Later that day I attended a dance meditation class and ran into my friend Virginia, who recently blogged that she does dream interpretation.  During break I asked if I could set up an appointment. She said, “Tell me the dream now.”
It turns out the symbols in my dream were not scary but really great! The dream revealed a message about a trip I had been planning and answered a question I had been contemplating about an educational opportunity.
How many times have you had dreams and wondered, “What the heck does this mean?” Below is information about Virginia and how she can help all of us sort out the symbols and messages that come unbidden, but so importantly to us in our sleep and sometimes in our daydreams.
Virginia Carlson created Deciphering Dreams to assist others in aligning the dream world with every day experiences. Dreams are a form of language that is not only unique to each of us, but also intimate. We all have choice in declining or accepting information in our dreams and determining how to utilize this information. The pathways into a deeper understanding of the self opens when the dreamer brings awareness to the dream scape where hidden desires unfold. Dream interpretation helps all of us to comprehend the message waiting to be revealed in vivid dreams from childhood, recurring dreams, and nightmares. By exploring dream time symbols, we not only discover our personal issues, but thoughts from the Universal Collective as well.
Virginia Carlson has been aware of the messages in dreams since childhood.   As a mother of four, combined with her education in Psychology and Sociology she has a solid foundation for understanding creativity of the mind. As a professional in-home counselor for individuals, families, and young children, she has been provided with a broad spectrum of hands on experience. Her passion for helping others coupled with her unique approach, have attracted the enthusiasm and support of local and distant communities. She is a Master level energy worker, prolific writer, and seasoned presenter.
Deciphering Dreams with Virginia Carlson explores day dreams; waking dreams; recurring dreams; prophetic dreams; past life recollections; universal symbols; and dreams appearing to be positively silly and preposterous. She uses her intuition as well as established public research to assist in understanding the entire spectrum of dreams. By using dream time language, desires or repressions come to the surface.  Dream interpretation is about the dreamer, based on the dreamer’s own experiences, and uniquely linking the dreamer’s body, mind and spirit.
Unraveling a dream with Virginia Carlson is a fun and exciting experience. A simple technique to unlock the dreams of the dreamer is shared with each participant through the interpretation process.
To schedule an appointment or for further information, please email contact information:decipheringdreams@yahoo.com    Additional work by Virginia Carlson may be viewed atvirginiasvoice.blogspot.com.

Thursday, August 1, 2013

I Was So Touched by the Love in this Video

I was so touched by the love in this video. I find it interesting that I use the word touch, but with a different meaning, as this is the content of this video.

I just finished a Christian Pankhurst Heart Centered Life Coaching program certification. We talked about being seen, heard, and felt. This video taps into a deep place in me of longing to love so unconditionally. I  feel the depth of caring between the two women. I want to be able to see and feel the spirit inside of others; especially the ones whom are often so isolated.

The other reason I am so touched emotionally by this video, is that my mother had Alzheimer's. In the Book, Chicken Soup for the Soul Think Positive, I wrote a story called "Childhood Delights." In the story, I mention that my most treasured moment was when she was nonverbal, but when I took her to band concert, she could sing the words to every song from the big band era.

I wonder about your reaction to this video that appeared on The Godvine video site. Although the song that is sung is relgious, any song that is meaningful to someone, could possibly bring out a response. I invite you to leave a coment if this video touched you as it me.